Friday

woke up late. cleaned up my room abit.
went to city hall to meet my group for project discussion.
man, i tell you..i really suck at research though i can write the most fantastic essays. like wat my groupmate said, "love the essay but you really need the references to make it ace" damn.

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Saturday

messed up my room. had lunch, packed some snacks then headed to school.
the main goal was to do the damn research to make my essay an A+ standard. shit. got mesed up by the E-library server. ended up with very little accomplished. anyway, i forgot to bring my hp so the day was pleasantly quiet. until i met up with Joanna at Harbor Front Starbucks. man, now i remember why i hate coffee so much. cos i got a freakin' headache the whole nite. anyways, it was fun meeting up with Jo. much bitching and cursing went on during those few hours we sat there.

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Sunday

screwed man. just hate waking up early. but had to meet up at 11am city hall.
discussed Sydney plans and set a date for the trial session. damn, it was nerve-wrecking meeting 4 strangers for the first time. crap. after that, headed to Taka to get my collagen drink (my latest indulgence) and checked out the crumpler bags at Wheelock. shit. Stan is making me waste money on an expensive bag. but i do love that damn crumpler bag!!

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i need alcohol.

like really need alcohol.

i can feel the thirst in my throat. it's dry and scratchy.
like juz desperate for some alcohol. beer. yes. beer.

my bottle of beer has been sitting in the fridge since Dec 2004.
but no. i can't drink it yet. but WHEN can i finally drink it?

oh! it's pure torture to be put off alcohol.
especially when i'm stressed, i'm pissed and i'm melancholic.

now, don't ask why i can't drink right now.
cos i can't tell you.

one of my greatest wish right now,
is that i can go back to my crazy F*-care life.
no worries, no responsibilities..just pure hedonistic fun.

i really need some alcohol man.

phuck lah.

what the shit is this?

stupid Consumer Behaviour take home exam questions were given on Friday and it has to be handed in on Monday. like, WHATTHEFUCK??

i'm already having a major headache and my life isn't going to get any better with ads to look for, scan, analyse and write that damned essay. 3000 words, no less.

all due on Monday.

phuck lah.

while walking home last night after work, i habitually headed for the letterbox before going up the stairs and was so god damned appalled to see that some moronic fool had left a little newborn kitten in a filmsy old shoebox!

the poor baby kitten was barely bigger than an adult-sized hamster and totally defensless against the cold wind of the night. its only consolation was the thin rag wrapped loosely around it.

ugh.

headache...a throbbing headache that's been bugging me since 3pm this afternoon. woke up reluctantly then had a huge breakfast before heading down to ToaPayoh library. missed the bus on the way out..ha! what a start.

then, i proceeded to spend hours just looking for infomation on Cambodia. yeah, u heard me..Cambodia. that's when i first started asking myself..what the shit was i doing!! we could have just picked an easier and more accessible country like Korea or India to do research on. but the argument is that probably no one will pick Cambodia and we'd be the "special" group. *geez* i'm not so sure about that now after going through piles of Newsweeks, Business Week and whatever damned magazines i found.

oh well..at least i found some info i think i could use for the report. Damn. i hate Management subjects. maybe should have changed my 2nd major to a no-brainer one like PR or Advertising. looks like i'm gonna have more of these headaches until the stupid report is done!

yo peepz.

i'm back from another blogging break.

well, wat can i say? 2004 has been one really trying year for me.
"i go up/ i come down/ but i'm emptier inside"

okayz..i dun feel so bad anymore now that the unhappy stuff is over. juz gotta keep focused on school, work and fun stuff. yeah.

cos i finally bought the crocthet book i've been eyeing for ages..BUT, when i look inside and try to understand, i find that i DON'T understand at all. eek. so huix, if ure reading this, be prepared to help me soon. BECAUSE, i really wanna crochet myself a scarf to keep me warm when i'm in Sydney & Melbourne later on in March!! yeah!! now how's that for BIG news?

anywayz, i should also tell everyone abt how i went beserk shopping like never before during the last few days of December..i spent like hundreds in a matter of days. eek..cos i went to WH in Great World, that clothes shop in Chinatown, FANCL, ebase, Gio..etc..man..and those movies i watched with CH..it was really fun! but now i'm left with a miserable bank account :( sheesh..the high cost of living!

alright.

life goes on. after all that worry and misery last 2 weeks, i've decided that life goes on and the only thing i can do is pull myself together, stop regretting/blaming anyone and just tell myself that somethings are necessary.

i just want to leave it behind.

anywayz. let's talk abt birthday stuff.
well, i'm finally 21, like most of my pals..so dun point out that i'm the "youngest" one anymore! this year, i didn't celebrate my birthday as i thought i would. problem was cos i wasn't keen on a bbq (think abt cleaning up man!) and cos i was already feeling quite down in the dumps.

anyway, who cares..i was like in Neverland by then..why should i waste money providing food for all the unsane people when i can spend it on myself. bleh.

oh well. let's count my presents: first one was the bouquet of happy-colored geberas and the parcel that L sent. oh well..although i dun pay much attention to flowers, it definitely feels nice to receive them, even if it's not from a bf or wat. and geberars look so happy..so i couldn't not feel happy. like wat my classmate, Annie, reasoned : if a man gives flowers, just take them..cos if u complain abt it, that'll probably be the last time he bothers! *haha* makes much sense to me now! geez..come to think of it..havn't received flowers in a longgg time..the last time was like way back in JC..

next prezzie is from CH..a huge bomb : the creative 5GB mp3!!! ohmigawd. that was quite a bomb. cos he kept insisting my present was only a keychain. *bleh* additional surprise was a little winter-bear from Russ..the cute grey bear which i love to bits! it's just so cute!! haha. no wonder it's great to have guy frenz who know what i want!

well..come to think of it..that's pretty much all my significant presents..and oh..plus those early presents given by huix and yingx lah..and ok..plus the Crabtree & Evelyn bath set given by Amanda. though that's not very significant ;P (pretend u didn't read that ok)